Anniyan_G

Introduction:

(basically again, im going to make this short and try my best to not let my emotions overcome my statements)

Well, the title of this entry is self explainatory. I hate myself. Why, coz im soooo 'influenced by others" orientated kind of guys , that i somehow 'lose interest' in things i believe in, just because i cant pursue on it for a forseeable future. Im talking about the small 'talk' session that i had with mum. 

Body:

So, have been in massive deep toughts about my so called 'relationship' life. And ive come to a conclusion. I never get what i want. Its always like that, whenever i want something, theres alwats something to stop me. I mean, mum was being kind enough to propose me 'to have an AFFAIR' lol .. first before seeking for the long term and lasting relationship, but sadly .. reallly sadly... my mind was never in that mind frame.....

and now how did this affect me, simple , ive been giving false information (lying) to this women, when it comes to meeting up. Example:

Hey dharma , you up for some ps2 session tonight. 

Me: uhmm, im at my cousin's place and i will be back this monday.

Im a fucking liar of the first degree. Anyways, need to point it out to her soon, that its pointless to pursue any further. Will wait and see, how long before my truthfull nature overcomes my "dharma has no balls when it comes to ladies" nature.

Fuck, i even hate coming online now.

Firstly, i would like to point out, that my interest in indian women is soo shallow, because of one simple fact, indian women ( kottes to be precise) are  born with the natural ability to be a politician. (Incase anyone didnt know what kotte is .. its basically sri lankan tamil people. And im one of them.) They can talk for hours and get depressed for the slightest of reason. However , im talking about the majority of women kottes, as my mum definitely doesnt fit into this category one bit. oo did i forget to mention that theyre self centred. And if theyre not self centred, theyre annoying creatures. 

secondly, i was thinking about my uncle and cousin brother who got married to a chinese. Now my uncle was the first one to move out of malaysia, to singapore, because thats where his wife's relatives are. Their daughter cant speak tamil, and probably doesnt know much aobut us. My cousin brother in the other hand is in Banting, and thats also because his wife's relatives are there, and his kids, if im not mistaken cant speak tamil too.But the best part of this, is they celebrate chinese new year instead of deepavali.

Thirdly, my mum and my brother and my two most immideate family ( my father's brother and my mum's sister in bangsar) are also highly octained religious believers. And me pursuing my dreams of being a different ( one of a kind) person seems to be all but a dream these days. So, doing something out of ordinary would make me recieve wide critics from a lot of poeple. Oh yes, i can still remember telling my bangsar cousin sister about my beef craze, only for me to recieve a long ass mail from my uncle about how sinful is it to eat beef and that cows are sacred and the others ' god told not to do this and that' statements.

Conclusion:

Haii , this has to be the most one sided , selfish posting ive ever written down. Im writing it down, so that i can forget about this shit. I mean, sadly after dad passed away, i somehow felt that i should shoulder the responsibilities of my family. I dont show that infront of mum, coz shes a much stronger (in heart) person than me, that i find it difficult to disobey the things that she says to me. Coz , ive passed the rebellious stage of my 'oh soo interesting' life, that i know that the advices she gives me is in 'OUR' best interest ( what she thinks is right, and as what her son should do). Dharma's alter ego Anniyan makes a statement "And just to even out things, ill make sure that i dont give mum the satisfaction on hittin on a kotte. At least , ill make sure that dynasty ends with me..."

Lol, youll never find another person like me. (note: convicts and mentally ill people not included)

Fuck , im off to play squash and try to calm myself down  

And dont come asking me for details or asking me about anything to do with this post. Coz , its none of your business and i dont give a flying fuck what u think.thank you.

Anniyan_G

man, i regret not updating my blog as often as i would to. There's soo much shit happening that, i've had to change my priority from writing it down and forgetting about it, to actually keep up pondering and thinking about the possibilities of each outcome.

So, this is what has happened for the past week or so

Thursday 13/04/06:

Thursday was a pathetic day, well so was the day before that, as it was raining like a bitch and the half. However, made way to the city in the night. It was the start of the easter break, and the city was crowded with drunkards. This includes me, but however i didnt drink. Instead i went out with sue , for dinner. We headed to a south korean restaurant. It was good. We chatted for a LOOOOOOONG time. And the high point of our conversation was:

1) my intimidation towards women .. which went on for ever . (she was actually laughing to the fact that women intimidate me. coz apparently i dont show enough evidence to prove that fact. )

2) How she sucked me in into watching OC. Damn it, i still will agree with what i said before. OC is a blady remake of the bold and the beautiful, but for youth generation. Man, this series would make women fall in love with it, and also some men. But sadly from where i come from, i absolutely cant tolerate this kind of kissy/mushy series. Ive promised to watch the whole first season, and im in my last few episodes and it sucks big time.

And i came home.

Friday:

Well, friday was the first day of this totally mad alcohol marathon ive been having. It all started with lumaine house warming party. There was about 60 people in that tiny house and + the rain, it had the right recipes for a great party. There was a dj playing some good music. A lot of alcohol and a lot of medical student. hohohoho. So, started of quiet, but once the alcohol kicked in, my hormones did to, and then it was annoying people next on the list.

Ooo yes, how can i forget my conversation with mum. So mum called, before the party in the evening. And was giving me the usual updates and vice versa, when all of a sudden, i asked mum what she would say if i got involved with a non indian women ( note, this is private, so i cant give much details, but ill give a vague one tough). She tells me , you are still young, u probably have 4 to 5 years to go, so getting into a realtionship at the moment with anyone is alright, but i would prefer if you were to find a PARTNER who knows how to tie a saree. And i have no idea how to respond, probably will have a chat with her, once she's down here.

Saturday:

Chanuk came down from sydney. And they came over. So was wondering what to do, when WE decided to stay home and drink. Bought 2 bottles of southern comfort and started drinking. (me, samitha, chanuk and burd ). By 11, we were wasted and started to sing and dance to baila (singalese tunes) and tamil. It was a fun day. Sam and chanuk, slept for a while and left in the wee hours in the mornin.

Sunday:

Got up in the afternoon. Chanuk was already here, and was pondering what to do, so sat down and watched the james bond marathon on tv.And once it came to around 8ish, we decided to drink again. But this time in sam's place. So we left, got a bottle of jim bean and another southern comfort bottle. Then since all the fucking supermarkets were closed, we got pizzas. Went to sam's place and started drinking. Got totally fucked. (again due to time constraint im going to end it there)

Monday:

boring day, saw football, was called to drink, but hangover was massive.

Tuesday:

played football in the evening. Boring day, job seeking

Wednesday:

drank 4 litre's of wine with ryan. And we were talking shit after shit for like 6 hours... was damn fun.

Today: boring boring, job application , boring...

Anniyan_G

well, im fucking drunk, this is because im at my place... and we are drinking, whoaaaaaa fuck yeah, some dude came down from sydney, hes sri lankan so thats a good reason enough to drink today, shittttt im drunk.

it's soo nice to blog when u are drunk, coz whatever u say comes from somewhere. But where, u  dont know. Fuckkkk i can still put in the 'comma', to make it sound standard. But i am fully drunk.

So i would like to say a few things,

firstly, last night had a wonderfull party. Fuck, ill have to be sober to talk about last night. Coz, i saw shit that i wasnt supposed to. And i do mean shit. LOL.. it was the hindu new year, and how do i greet it...

bahahaahahah... man.. i deleted what i wrote.. coz i saw some shit alright...

i wanna get higggggggghhhhhh.... soooooo higggggssshhhh.... im off to finish the bottle.. wooooohooo

note: this only happens when i drink at my place.....

.wooooooooooohoooooooo

Anniyan_G

well, im currently in intense debate between my heart and mind to blog about yesterday, and currently , the debate is still on, and probably the outcome will be on friday or saturday.

however ,

yesterday took sanjna, shaki and nisha to chadstone. It was relatively a very exiting day for me. (sarcastically). But then, if i could handle 3 women shopping, i would certainly be able to handle one woman. So im disecting the whole shopping situation and finding out how i can gain something from it. (sadly tough i was already able to handle the WOMAN, back in malaysia, in probably the biggest shopping centre, 1 utama)

This went on for like a kabillion hours, this is not literally tough. It felt like a kabillion hours. (I was already dead exhausted from last night, when i had to sacrifice the first half of man utd vs arsenal to help a friend to start and finish his assignment, which i did in a record 6 hours . Well, it was a little scrappy, but still very professional. ) Legs were hurting. Maybe coz i didnt appreciate the tons of excitement shared by those women. But it was generally fun.

Met nisha's boyfriend. And he had 2 friends with him. They both dissapeared within seconds. Smart fella's. Probably they could sniff boredom the moment they saw us.

However, here comes the problem. It was all well and good. Until it was getting late and we had to depart. So , after shopping in the very last shop for the day K mart, we decided to leave. Then all of a sudden, shaki gets fits. Man , she went to super annoyance. She was poking me and saying dharma dharma dharma in this little kiddish voice. My brains went haywire. It (my brains) was annoyed with her attitude and voice. I was sooo close to whoppin her ass all over chadstone, but sadly my mum tought me how to behave in public AND this woman was a good friend of bro. If not, i would have used my best weapon ( my mouth ).

In the bus, sanjna join in the act to. However, her annoyance was more controlled and timed. Shaki just went cuckoooo. I was just praying that the god damn FUCKING train station is near bye. I mean, i could have annoyed her back, but then i was tired. And i get very cranky when im tired.

Felt bad when i came back, so messaged them kindly, saying that if theyre didnt have any plans for the next day , i would come over. And slept of. Got up today at around 10 ish. Had to do shoppin . Did that. Came back and was about to search for jobs , when burd says its about time we give the kitchen a full clean, so here i am, bloggin and feeling really tired. Promised to meet up with the ipoh kotte's tomorrow , hopefully they sms after 1 ish..

Might have missed some things, but im soo tired, that i literally dont give a fuck.

However, while i was sleeping last night, somehting came to mind. Up to date, theres only 1 woman in australia and malaysia ( theyre the same woman by the way) that doesnt annoy me. The chances are good. But i have to find a job first or it would be pointless, and she's got her 4th year papers on july, would like to tell more about her, but i have to time it accordingly.

Everyone here know about this, and im been getting shit for months now. Havent told her anything yet, but thats because her 4th year finals are soon and ive got 1 last priority to keep up to ( finding a job). Need to see how mum would handle this, so May is going to be really entertaining.

All i can say now is she's not white . ( Criteria set by mum 3 years ago) 

Soon, soon .. things that were never said would be said. Bahahaha.

This is Dharmarajan Ramalingam, Pleasent dreams and good night

Anniyan_G

hahaha.. thats such a nice entry title. I wanted to blog about this earlier, but seeing that ive been getting alot of payback from people due to my 'getting married' prank, i had to be very toughtful and carefull. Of course due to the fact that this woman being gullible, i had the feeling that she couldnt pull any prank on anyone, but i had to be carefull not to get conned.

And i didnt get conned... pheewwwwwww, my dignity is still intact. caution ego growing, egooo groowinnnggggg. hahaha.

so met her up in melbourne central with her friends. Theyre nice people. One thing i notice about ipoh people, they get seriously pissed if anyone was to condemn about ipoh. I was explaining about the time i saw this pink truck, ( i wasnt sure wether it was ipoh municipal council (Majlis perbadanan Ipoh) or the Road work department (JKR) ) ... but i know i saw a pink truck. And they got furious. It was hilarious.

Then they were talking about school life, and i was enjoying my chicken teriyaki subway... mmmmmmmmmmmmm.. i was bored...

example of situation : shaki , nisha and this other girl was going on about kemahiran hidup and how they can sew...

me: (zippa da dooo dah zippa deee day... my oh my what a wonderful day) in my toughts .. hahahaha

well after that we departed, the girls wanted to go shoppin and i was literally tired.

Why i was tired. well yesterday was a big day. Headed to my couz place, got brutally bullied by my niece (as usual).. came home watched soccer and then as i was about to sleep, girl calls. hahaha..

this woman is telling me about her small problems she's facing. She's married. ( The part where dharma went to lanka for the wedding). She knows what happened in the bachelor's party and was trying to get some things out of me, but me being me, i cant backstab. So, to even things out, i told her, you tell me what uve heard and ill rectify wether its true or not. And this went for nearly an hour, then it was talking about life and all... aaahhh missed this women heaps..

* i asked girl wether i was romantic or not, coz aparently alot of people think im not, well i know im not, but i tought i gave out romantic vibes to people. However, she made sure i understood that i cant be a romantic guy. Again, HOWEVER, she did tell me something to ease my pain... hahaha.. and it was nice to hear that too.. maybe its good im not romantic. What she told, well i dont want to be big headed so ill just keep it to myself*

we spoke for 1 hour and 40 mins , and we stopped as my battery died.

saw the time, it was nearly 3.. fuckkkkkkkk

so yeah... that how my weekend went.

tudellilooo people